Today is the day...again.

Today is the day I am supposed to call and hear about the interview. I don't think I can. I have very little hope left and I simply don't know if I can handle hearing "no" one more time. These twelve months have been quite the roller coaster and pretty agonizing. I just don't know what to do. For now, I keep checking my e-mail and praying constantly...though I'm not sure I'm getting through.